Friday, January 29, 2016

Sickness


Hello my beautifuls,

I do know that I promised a post every Monday and Friday but this time I`m really sick. I caught a flu and I can`t even breathe properly. Really annoying I know. So I`ll be back on track as soon as possible. Please bear with me.

Love, Allie

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Drums rolls please...


Hello my dear,

This time I only want to give you some updates on me, my life and also the blog life. For the ones who reach this blog for the first time, I`m Allie, I live in Romania and I love God with all my being. Nice to meet you and also it will be really nice to tell me something about you in the comments. I love meeting new people.

If you can`t tell already I`m quite nervous about this new update because I hadn`t wrote a post since like forever. I`ve started this blog in august 2013 after I graduated from high-school hoping that it would become a place where people could be themselves and where they would stop feeling alone. For some reason the blog went on and off since then and now, I guess it`s time to find its path again.

These last three years I`ve been quite busy. I`ve moved houses three or even four times, I had two jobs and in July I`ll graduate from college. Also I`ve met some bunch of new friends , lost others and I visited Italy. Hmm, yeah I guess this sums up a little what I`ve been doing in the past years. In the virtual world I guess I`ve only been active on Instagram (allessandrao if you want to follow) and this was all.

These days I was cleaning up my laptop (I do this only when I`m out of space for my essays) and I found out all the plans I had for the blog. I hope you won`t find it really egocentric but that folder inspired me and also made me feel guilty, like hey, girl, why did you stop? So, with new forces, I even have an agenda now where I write all my thoughts that I want to share in the blogosphere world, I hope I will make my blog achieve its purposes. Trust me, for me, being organized it is the most dreadful thing ever. I just can`t have a planner, write what I have to do and even if I write on a piece of paper: do that or go there I most likely lost it or forget that I even have it.

I`ll do my best to post twice a week without missing a day but also if I`ll feel that my experience from a day could help someone I`ll write it down even if it is not Monday or Friday. So with this being said I`m looking forward for this Friday.
Don`t forget that you are special and loved,
Allie
My agenda :-)



Monday, February 23, 2015

Blown away...

My dear, 


   I have a feeling that I am in my own bubble and time is passing day by day and I am the same girl without changing. Yeah, my hair is shorter and longer and shorter again, my age is different, but somehow I still feel that I am the same girl. I don`t know if I`m the only one who feels like this but sometimes trust me, it can be pretty weird to feel that all the world is changing in front of your eyes and you are just....nothing. You have the same thoughts, the same struggles, the same beliefs, the same people, you are just the same.
   I`ve been thinking about this a lot this days, maybe because usually I`m aware of my mistakes exactly when I do them. I am a positive girl, thank God for that because only with Him I can wake up every day and start a new chapter. But I can`t shake off the feeling that my book is pretty boring `cause nothing amazing is happening right now. It`s like I am standing and waiting for something without even doing what I like. Do you guys feel like this or I am the weirdest of you all?
   I know that my writing is not pretty regular, maybe because I kind of felt that I lost my voice. Which was the biggest struggle ever. My mom used to tell me that I am made to speak my mind and to tell what I feel and to do something good with my voice, and feeling that I have a billion of thoughts but I just can`t express them was kind of scary because I was like: ok, now my brain will just blow up  like a bomb and the result won`t be pretty at all.
  After weeks of trying to make something with me and trying to make things right on my way I just lost it. Shut all down, and take time for me, for putting things just the way I feel like they should be. Maybe some of you will be like: ok, and the point is? Bear with me please and you`ll see. Hopefully!

1. Life is beautiful. Painful sometimes but it is a miracle. 

What I have done was pretty simple. I made a mental list of all the things I could be thankful for if I just want to. Basic things, like my home, my parents, my health, every single breath I can take, the sun and the list can go on. 

2. I am beautiful because....

I am not usually so into making lists but it seemed like the right time for them. So I made another list with all the reason I am feeling beautiful. Maybe it will sound very egocentric but it`s not. `Cause I didn`t make me so me saying that I am beautiful because of me would be so wrong. But I am beautiful because of His love and because how that it makes me feel. 

3. Be thankful

I guess this was my freaking struggle. I am not a competitive person. I don`t really want to win something, I don`t want to be known, I just do things because I like them. But when it comes to my life or to what I should to I`m so weird because I always want to do things better for others. Which is so wrong. If I see things like this, and sadly I do it often I will fail in every single thing. Why? `Cause I can`t do anything for someone if he doesn`t want it. So, I learnt, on the hard way to be thankful for what I am through Christ and to be thankful just for being in someone life. 
 
I don`t usually write here posts about me because I don`t think I can make them useful but today I felt like I should be more open and I wrote exactly my feelings and I am praying that it can be an encouragement for you and it can be a different perspective of seeings things. I`ll love to hear from you in the comments or mail ( withoutwordsabout@gmail.com) about your struggles and how you passed them. 


With love, Allie

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

That time

Hello beautiful,

All the rights to the owner. Amazing quote, by the way


   I`m not the perfect one with a perfect life. I am so far from it. I didn`t discover the recipe for throwing away my worries, I still have them. I still cry, yell, get angry, thinking that my life is a mess, I still have issues of my own and I still live. And I love my life. I love all the little imperfections which are making me whole.
   Because I wouldn`t appreciate my smile as much as I do if I have never been sad, my smile won`t look so bright and won`t make me so beautiful if I am not aware of all the tears hiding in the back, my love won`t be so bright if I didn`t know what being disappointed and heartbreaking look like.
   We couldn`t see the wonders in this world if we didn`t meet the bottom of the valley because at the roots of dispair the world have all its brightest colours. We just need to open our eyes and see. See how amazing the sunshine is and how its warmth is making us enjoy ourselves, see how many beautiful souls lay around us waiting to be discovered, see how much love we can give back to others who need a single word of wisdom.
    We can share so much and we choose no to. We can change the world with a single smile but we choose to keep it for ourselves. We are egocentrics without even thinking and we are alone because we aren`t letting people in our lives anymore. I was disappointed, you were too but the world doesn`t have 10 or 100 of people, they are a bunch of billions there and more and not all of them are as bad as you think so why do you choose to close your heart and let all the negativity to make you a bitter and sad one? Maybe you should stop a little and think about what exactly are you and what you want in your life and also you should change whatever doesn`t suit you the way you want and also don`t be afraid to follow your dreams. You can do it because He made you a beautiful, smart and wonderful person, you just have to discover all the amazing qualities He put in you. Because you are His masterpiece.



Love, Alliee
P.S Check this song out Be Grateful, Spread the Happiness